Oh Sun Come Out

So it's been a while since i updated this thing and i figured it was time.

If you looked at my life from a birds eye view not too much has changed. Ben and i have been working long hours as of late. It's an amazing thing to have jobs and to be able to make it financially in such an awful economy.

My thoughts on God are so incredibly all over the board, he has come through for us on so many different occasions over the past 5 months, It has to be him, there are no other explainations and yet i still find myself wondering where he is. I want something concrete, i guess that's just the kind of person i am. I like straight forward. I like real. I like things that i can see and feel. I don't want to fake it anymore but to find where my God is. does that make sense???

Lately i have been struggling to find my place. Find myself. People say i wont until i'm in my mid 30's. Go figure.

We are very lonely. It's amazing how you never know how much you need friends until you are stuck in a world with nobody under the age of 35. We miss our friends.

I cant wait until summer. this cold just hurts me. I could never live in Alaska. I need the sun. Did you know people are depressed most in the winter time? Yeah i think i'm there.

That's all. Love