Vaccines For The Uninsured?

Cynicalness- it's a disease. A disease that creeps into every inch of your being. Pretty soon you wish there was a vaccine that took care of the scepticality that runs rampid infecting everything you once believed. When did christianity become that for me?

To keep something straight, this has nothing to do with God, i'm not mad at him, i don't blame him for anything i'm about to write, i still want God, but i want GOD.

God. Not the churches view of this being that wants to save people by getting them to say this prayer so that they will someday float off to a fairytale land ignoring the fact that they dont have enough food for tomorrow.

I've done that, i've listened to them, listened to the guy who made us feel guilty and like a dissapointment to God if we passed a person on the street without giving them a tract. I've been in that boat when i was so scared to question what i believe in fear of angering God and being damned to hell so fast i wouldnt know what hit me. Hell is scary. Telling kids they are going to go to hell if they dont believe this, and say this, and vote this way is effin scary. What do you think they are going to do?

I have recently discovered a hidden adgenda in these christians, they want to save you.

Do they want to love you? Sure but only until you say the prayer of salvation and then your on your way to find God alone.... that cant be right!!!!!!

I'm frusterated.

The idea is to love, to be a family for those that need it. To help, to recognize a need and meeting that need. why are "sinners" (Well, i didnt know what other word to use,, what i mean is the unchurched, the people that *GASP* smoke..... or drink alcohol or .......... drum roll please..... Are homosexual. oh god not them!! any body but them!! Please, they are just hurting people.) rejected. Why are they labeled as the outsiders when they are the people Jesus loved. Those are the people we need to wrap in our arms and SHOW THEM we love them.

WHY ISNT THE CHURCH DOING ANYTHING!!!!! Stop saving people's souls and love one or two!!


So this is what leaves me hearing a worship song and thinking, yeah right, those people singing it dont mean it. All those words they say dont mean much because things don't match up. This is why i hate church talk. I hate the typical prayers prayed. I hate the church.




God, I need help.